6月30去了朴容夏的 Film Concert，看了很多他生前在日本演唱会的影像，他唱歌的声音真的很好听。 有一个场面是他问候的场面，那一瞬间突然错觉他本人就在台上@_@ ，是我还接受不到他已经离开的事实吗？看着影片的时候，也不时想象他会不会突然出现，然后告诉我们一切都是假的。。。。
看着看着，想起了王宥胜，他俩长得有点像吧？难道我之前喜欢宥胜是这个原因？再仔细分析一下，一直都有持续注意的陈威全也长得一幅很善良，憨厚的样子。在想想，我以前喜欢偶像都是那一段时间超迷恋他们，但过了一段时间后就厌倦了。而没有超迷恋，但一直以来有持续关注的，好像只有陈威全和朴容夏了。（在中，俊秀有时还是会看看他们的新闻）
我一直认为我喜欢花美男型的^^所以结论是？我也不知道，哈哈
What can be done in 3 weeks?
Diet? Travel in Europe? everyday exams?
I met 19 friends with different backgound in training camp, and made up a 'quick but close' relationship with them.
I was worry and nervous before I go to the camp. Although I have 2 friends going to the camp as well.
The 1st day we were seated according to group, means that the peoples sitting on my left and right side are my team members. But I was just so afraid to open my mouth to talk to them.
Actually I thought it was a camp for only foreigner;;; it turns out to be foreigners + Koreans with overseas background + Koreans who speak English well.
It is okay since I speak Korean as well. -> One things I want to clarify here: I never say that I can't speak Korean! It is just that this camp required us to use English as official language.
We introduced ourselves on the first day, and I tried to remember all of their name as soon as possible because this is the 1st sincerity that one can show to others by remembering their names.
Then, there come our group projects. To be frankly, I felt left out because everyone got their own role but I didn't.
Everyone is busy but I'm so free. I am sure someone can understand this feeling well. It is surely not a good feeling.
But I have optimistic view. And I tried to get me something to do for the projects.
Things turned out to be better and started to feel the sense of belonging to our group!
Although we screw up the tower, they sing the song for me when I am up in the middle of the air @.@
We become closer and closer while completing all the project, especially Drama S and We Are One Fest. practising time.
I have a very minor role in Drama S so I helped the UCC team to color and cut out the characters. Also helped my roomate onni to practise her role.
We practise our song at the last minute. (I noticed that the director was so nervous but couldn't do anything when team member were arguing about the lyrics, melody, and actions.)
We came out of all kind of idea during Crepiad including the shit vanishing liquid.
We listened to each others stories during the breaks.
We laughed at those who sleep during the lectures.
一直以来我们都说对自己喜欢的事情要充满热情，那才有动力去完成它，享受当中的过程。
但我这生人当中，好像没有对任何事情有过一股持续不灭的’热情‘。
上星期从两个人的身上感受到了‘热情''passion'：
(1)
在学习圣经的时候，传来了一股感动人心的歌声，唱的是 “You raise me up”。
虽然我没看到他的表情，但我却可以从歌声感受到充满感情的演唱。
认识这位歌唱者快2年了，看过他表演小提琴几次，但从没听过他唱歌。
后来才知道原本是牧师要他表演小提琴的，但他自己要求说想表演唱歌。
我想，他应该是对歌唱充满了热情，所以唱出了一首扣人心弦的歌曲。
(2)
上周末跟一群认识不到1个月的朋友去了江原道海边之旅，当中有一位是个爱跳舞的男生。
在我们的训练课程时就知道他很会跳舞，我们组那时表演的舞蹈都是他编了之后教我们的。
那一天我们在停车场等迟来的4位朋友，他叫一位朋友把手机插上车里的扩音器，把音乐声量开到很大。
然后他在车前随着歌曲跳起舞来！
感觉他跳舞的时候很开心，可以不顾其他人的眼光，自己在那享受，任谁都可以感受到他是个爱跳舞而且享受跳舞的人。
后来他拉我一起跳，认识我的人都知道我不会跳舞（哈哈），如果是以前的我肯定拒绝他然后继续坐在车里欣赏他的舞蹈。
但我感受到了他对舞蹈的热情，站起来配合他~
他跳舞跳了大概有六七年了，后来好像因为跳舞与前途跟家人有点意见不和。
这星期一直咳嗽，喉咙痛，感冒样样来。。。但我却没时间里它们，有时感觉整个人微烫，但还是不管它，因为我不想告诉自己：我生病了！
昨天原本打算写 resume 的，但才发现很多 internship 都需要 english speaking 的成绩。时间紧迫下，唯有赶快报名后天的考试。现在唯有靠平常的努力了， 我没时间把今天和明天全都投入在练习英语，因为周一有quiz，所以努里祷告中~
刚刚又有些事打乱了我原本已经忙不过来的精神，haiz...
